Pocket Change

They say that change is inevitable.

Back when I was about 16 years old and tried my first beer I remember how disgusting that taste was. I couldn't for the life of me understand how or why my dad would drink beer instead of water or milk (in my case: i love milk) during a hot summer afternoon.

Of course as I grew older my taste buds changed and I began to actually like beer. I went from beer to wine's for a while but never really progressed to hard liquor (i hate the smell). As a youngster I also swore I would never cut my hair off (i had it down to my waist) and of course I reached a certain point where I no longer cared for long hair.

For the longest time I have never liked kids. That's not to say that I don't like kids in general, but the idea of having my own kids scared the hell out of me. I didn't pay much attention as to why that was, but I just knew that the thought of me and kids was like Peace and love in this world: non-existent.

Now that I'm getting up there in age I'm finally beginning to understand why I didn't like the idea of having kids: responsibility. That's not to say that I'm irresponsible now, but I like the liberties I have. I can pack my bags at any moments notice and go wherever I'd like. With kids, you have to run down the list of things you need to do before you even contemplate going somewhere.

I asked myself the other day "What are you waiting for?". It's not as if I'm getting any younger, and although I love my current life, I know that having kids now would not only affect me, but my parents, her parents, etc, etc...

The point was made the other when I was watching David Letterman. Collin Farrel had been on the show and was talking about how he had changed. He was no longer the bad boy who would get drunk almost every day, and it took him two years into his son's birth to realize that he no longer needed to be "that" dude. He mentioned how being a father really does change your life.

I'm not saying that I want to have kids now, but I'm no longer afraid. I realize that there there are other joys in life that I'm missing out on, and there can be some entity out there who would benefit from all things that I can teach them.

So now my life has changed a bit. Nothing too drastic, but certainly a different point of view. I can already hear my friend Jason (who has a young daughter) telling me the beauty of having kids.

So they say change is inevitable right?